Finding the Light

It’s been a good week, and a not-good week.

Bad news comes first, then things can start looking up. I’m not happy over the outcome of the USA presidential election. That’s all I’m going to say about that, though there are a plethora of things that could be said.

While I was VERY (extra emphasis goes here) grateful for that extra hour last weekend, the time change is killing me. Having the sun go down at 5pm is making me soooooooooooooooooo tired. I’ve been hovering around something zero-to-negative energy at night; even coming up with something besides toast for dinner makes me want to collapse on the couch. This lack of energy/motivation/creative juice leads to the following.

I’m crazy behind in my NaNoWriMo word count – like over 6500 words – and I am not enjoying my novel at all. There’s a little voice in my head that keeps telling me it’s worth saving, and I believe it, but ugh. Having that translate into time and words has been a massive struggle. This is probably the most difficult NaNo I’ve participated in since my first year (starkly contrasted by 2014 and 2015 where I finished ½ way through the month).

To top it off, I got my first rejection letter from a publisher.

But I can’t dwell on any of this, or it will drag me down into the oblivion of depression. Newton’s Third Law says, “for every action, there is an equal and opposite reaction”. Well, here are my opposite, if perhaps not exactly equal, reactions.

There’s nothing I can do directly about the new president of the USA (taking over the world doesn’t happen overnight, but I’m working on it), however I can speak up for the things I believe in, so they won’t be swept away completely. I can spread love, and reach out to those hurting. I can offer my spare bedroom to the refugee Americans who flee the country before the wall goes up.

As for the darkness, and lack of energy, I can watch the sunrise from my desk at work, and be thankful for the warm weather we’re having, making the transition easier. I can spend time on my deck in a t-shirt, even though we’re almost halfway through November.

There are so many amazing things about NaNoWriMo, even when you’re failing at it. There is such a supportive community online, who will give you encouragement, plot suggestions, and even a virtual hug when you need it. I’m not talking about people I actually know, but complete strangers in the forums, and in Facebook groups. I can celebrate other people’s wins, and enjoy the creativity that’s flowing, because ultimately, that’s what NaNo is about.

One rejection is not the end of the world, and let’s be honest, it’s going to happen, and probably more than once. I can let myself feel sad about it, but not let that sadness take root. I can use the feedback to improve future submissions. I can acknowledge that I’m much further ahead than I thought I would be a year ago at this time.

How will you push back?

“Sometimes you have to go through darkness to get to the light.” – Unknown


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